Christmas
We went to another christmas lunch held by some sports club. A LOT of herrings were served on the buffet table, there was some spinach sauce that I ate with ham. Besides the ham, other hot dishes were grilled ducks and deep fried battered fish. Most things were cold, I was glad there was rice pudding, which Morten ate a lot. Prior to the food I had a shot, which someone told me could soothe my throat. I had something called fisk before and that was said to serve the same purpose. Only what I had last night was 100 times stronger. Even the Danish girls found it hard to stand.
At the peak of my dizziness after the shot, I chatted up some girls in the party. Speaking of how easier it is for Danes to take a gap year and travel before University as the government pays for their education and they got some form of bursary during their study period. I think that it’s the ease that you can always study coming back from travels that makes it easier. In Hong Kong, free edcation ends after the 3rd year of high school, which sucks. In university, you can get loan from the government, but then you have to be tied to work your ass off a few years after graduation before you become a debt-free individual again. That is pathetic. That ties persons to study the fields that promise high income instead of follow their own interests. That renders parents thinking they should make their kids finish their education as soon as possible and end all these financial madness in the family, sometimes family sponsors a lot in their kids’ education. It’s also in Hong Kong’s culture you can’t get anywhere without a proper certificate from some highest institutions. That’s also because Hong Kong has such a competitive environment that keeps reminding everyone you have to strive, get the most comfortable house and most expensive car, eat the most delicate food.
Sex
I’m just so sick and tired of popular culture and beliefs. Christmas is around the corner. Sexy lingeries pop up in every advertisement on the papers and everywhere in clothes stores, in the walking street, in New Yorkers, in Victoria Secrets’ commercials etc. When all they sell to men are those games, razors and stuff, women have to put up with these messages underneathe they read: you have to be sexy on Christmas day, your gift is becoming your spouse/partner’s gift, bringing sexy back is what you can do for yourself on this special occasion.
How about all the other interests we have as women than dressing up and looking good, what about books, what about yoga clothing, what about painting tools and the like. Why the hell should the clothes stores use 50% of their space selling bras and translucent garments and not sports clothes and stuff.
Uh huh, christmas is a romantic occation where people can relax. But given all these price tags on the lingerie and the idea every woman is doing the same and so should you in addition to the popular culture spread by MTV and women magazines that girls have to compete against each other’s sexuality–I just feel so turned off.
Why can’t we women take charge of what we want to do on Christmas day, why doesn’t all this commercialisation leave us alone on this peaceful day of the year? To be romantic, it has to come from within, it’s spiritual, it’s about spending time with the ones you like, adore and care. To be romantic, you can tell what you feel to the man you love. Wearing those things and slautering your wallet on those just can’t do the same.
I’m upset by the fact how sexuality is made use by the industry and how such an initimate thing like sex is to be put into the realm of mass production. All these ideas by make up companies, lingerie companies, models companies and the sex industry that women have to make specified efforts as instructed by the aforementioned institutions so as attract men and as a token of showing how much you like your men–disgust me. To think about it, these industries want money, they have money to spread those nasty messages to influence our minds, they have the money to put pounds of make up and up to six lights in the photo shooting room and a technical team to work on the photoshop stuff to create those models that would otherwise attract men better than ‘the ordinary us’ do. Those created sort of models also intimidate us and pose a threat that women have to live to some standards otherwise we’re less a woman we are.
At the end of the day, I guess we should just all have our standards what is the woman that we want to become. Somehow, even I’m just twenty, I knew there is something beyond superficial about sexuality. How about a woman tends to be more conversational and has more ease where it comes to expressing feelings. How about a woman’s ability to add harmony -in places where there could be too many men, having some women’s presence can always bring sort of a comfortable feeling to the place. How about us loving tenderness and soft and smooth silkiness when decorating things and attentiveness to details. How about our born innate ability to care and nurture off springs.
Instead of sterorotyping women, I’ll make another attempt to share how I would really define what a respectable woman is about- it’s a woman who preseveres through her life, job and family and knows her place on earth who has so much regenerative power from within that she can uphold a family through rough times comes high water or hell, she stands. That’s what my mom does. Lots of women are proud of stretch marks. I’m proud of my scars, on the other hand, from hiking and riding a bike etc. and I’m equally proud of my tan, despite my mom’s opposition (Asian culture refers classic beauty as having whiter skin)–cos they all show individuality. I can be who I want. As a woman I have a life to live as well, I’m not just a doll or in our Cantonese slang, a vase to add to the table.
Just like a woman. To be continued.